my last day

Today was my last day of 8th grade. It was really fun. You don't relize how close your class grows together over a year. I love so many of them like my brothers and sisters. I am happy that school is out, but i will miss them untill next year. Hopefully my mom will let me be social this summer. Haha.

 I just like to think of how were gonna all be grown up one day and will be looking forward to class reuinions and such after graduation. 

Oh, Graduation...

We have four years untill that. 4. so close but so far away.

I am going to miss some of them so much. expecially kayla who is moving to kansas. we aren't the best of friends but she is so sweet and we all love her. 

i hope i rememner all the wonderful memories from this year. it was great.

sick of sick

being sick is a waste of time. you never have enough energy to do anything. sometimes walking up stairs is like running a mile. and part of being so weak is you don't feel good enough to eat much, or it just hurts to much to swallow. 

they always say rest helps you get better faster. well too much is just plain frustrating. i couldn't hardly sleep at all last night and i still didn't have energy to do anything then. my goodness! i sound so pitiful. i hate it when everyone feels bad for me to because its not like its their fault for me getting sick. i guess i just have a bad immune system or something. 

i guess all i can do is try to feel better and if that doesn't work... just pray for me :-)

Sorry

I relize i haven't posted in forever but i promise i will as soon as i get some free time to myself with an availible computer. (when i am not sleeping) haha. thats a promise!

Snowmobiling Thrills!

Today me and my dad went snowmobiling. When your driving a snowmobile so much can go through your head. When your in town its super stressful because its impossible to steer on the roads, you have to worry about getting stuck in ditches (staying out of the ditch is hard because its like fighting gravity), hitting drifts you can't see, going to slow (falling behind dad), and a whole bunch of other things.

I also went from being cold so like sweating. But there is also times where you get to feel like you fit in to nature, a chance to see deer and pheasants when there not lost or scared or running. There is time to think about how breath taking nature is. And time to just have fun, controlling the gas going about 50 in an open field!!! The thrill.

Put it all together and I love it. It is so much fun. Time with my dad. It can get really tiring and uncomfortable but when I'm back home sitting on the couch, i realize that i wish i were back out on the trails, because it is so much fun!!!

my undicided future

when i tink about the future, i am so overwhelmed. All the decions, what do i want to do for my first job, do i want to go post secondary, how much college will i go to, what will i be, how will i pay for it, what will my house look like, how will i decorate it, WHEN WILL I HAVE TIME TO FALL IN LOVE?

all these questions, and no answers.

but i am not going to worry. i will take my time, enjoy my life, one day at a time because i know what i want to do is what God wants me to do. i will do my best to live my life for him, everyday i can.

sometimes is fun to think of the future. but right now is the present, and i am going to enjoy it.

"Today is a gift, thats why we call it the present." J. C. Whitterly

Twizlers

You know the twizlers licorice that you have to pull apart, cause they are kind of stuck together? Well sometimes I feel like a one of my friends is being pulled away from me. Like she is getting digested and I'm left all alone, but I'm safe. I took the right way out, by not going in.

She is being used and not in the right way. And I feel I can't do anything. She doesn't want to listen to me anymore. She doesen't relize the importance of her decions now. She doesn't relize that it could affect the rest of the rest her life.

I recognize what she is doing and that it is wrong, but I don't know if she does, thats what worries me. I can't change who she is or what she has done. I guess all I can do right now is pray for her, so if you are reading this would you please take a second and pray for her that she would make the right decisions, and live her life for God, not to be lead astray.